Yes…it’s better to let go…in some situations, even if the doing breaks us down!
It’s not easy to break away from something that is dear so dear to us but that can also be damaging for many reasons. A lot of times we have the power to take this resolutions but we seem too weak to do it and we go for just another day. How long until we realize that letting go of what is so close to our heart is the best option? We can’t control other’s decisions and actions but we can control ours. By waiting we are not accomplishing anything. If we don’t take action others will.
There is always an enchanting feeling when I get involved in portraits. I feel very relaxed, and it is almost meditation. This one in particular was a rather fast sketch of my dear niece a few years back. I asked her to stay still long enough to allow me to draw her outline and put some detail in her face before working from her photo. She doesn’t look exactly like her but I was pleased with the results. This is in pastel which is a very difficult medium to work with and it might not be gallery material but I really wanted to focus in shading because I have some problem rendering shadows and fade them in a natural way. I would love to make my own portrait in pastel some day soon.
The holidays are fast approaching. It is a very painful time for me. Yes, for some people this might seem like I am not trying enough, but I am. However, I don’t push myself and if I feel something is going to put me in a negative mood I avoid it! Even if it means to shun from family time, music, people, and places. It is definitely still a problem. I try to believe it’s just another month, another day, another year without any significance. That’s how I deal with it. The holidays, “December” was my brother’s favorite season. It was also the month in which he passed away. Ugghh!!!! I don’t want to overanalyze this because I get upset. So, I hibernate from the fuzz and happiness of the outside world. I stay very busy in my home, in my little crazy studio. I engage in something new so I have my mind plugged and alert and I just dive into it. So, this season I think I will be sewing something. It is a challenge b/c I don’t sew very good but I will try. I am also going to make my second doll. The first one (below) is not very promising. She looks like she needs some urgent help, but it was my first doll and that makes her “special”.